Today my stress was much higher. My parents almost drove me crazy but tonight when I was doing something I lost it. At first when I started making mistakes I was able to calm myself telling myself that it was okay to just keep at it but the more I was doing mistakes the more I was getting angry then I started calling myself names and after more mistakes I hit myself (started doing that after we moved...i NEVER used to do that before we moved here). I did it anyway despite my frustration and I will stick to the decision which came from this, I am sick and tired of the situation I am in and I am sick and tired of making decisions and not standing by them!

After it was done I put the score of Prometheus on (on Youtube since i dont have the cd) and that has calmed me, I'll listen to the rest then make some food and go eat it in front of the television.

51 days left!