I changed my mind about the ultimatum.

Not because I think it's a bad idea and not because I am too afraid but because I have a feeling that it is not the correct time to do it.

There was like a voice telling me today to just wait, it just came to me out of the blue, that was what I suddendly was think about, just wait and it did not seem to come from me at all (im VERY used to doubting myself and that was not it at all).

So this is what I will do for now, wait.