I find these posts so incredibly sad and heart wrenching. It's so hard to read what some of you are going through. I just want to thank you all for sharing your experiences and emotions. It has helped me in my baby decision which I have been deciding on for five years. I will not have children simply because I know I will not be happy. And in turn, will make my poor children unhappy. Although I feel I will be very hands on mom because I love kids in general, feeling burdened or overwhelmed will affect my relationship with my kids. Being clinically depressed and sick all the time wouldn't help either. I refuse to allow anyone to make me feel bad or guilty for my decision. It's my life, no one, not even my dear darling husband has any say in it. If it means that we would have to break apart one day, so be it.