HOw about adoption???? I mean I do foster care and I love it. Trust me if I could adopt them all I would.. Children are precious gifts and not everyone is blessed to have them. I don't know why you feel the way you do but seeking help is a good idea. In the mean time do what is best for your child.. There are loving people out there that would love to adopt and give your child the home and family that he/she deserves. Think long and hard about it. I am amother of 3 and love each and everyone of them plus i do daycare and like i said foster care also. No I don't claim to be perfect and never would, I just believe that all children deserve to be happy and be where they are loved and not made to feel like they were a mistake.