Hi Jennyt - you are not alone. I think that many, many women experience these very same feelings, but most are too ashamed to talk about it. So first, I commend youo n your bravery for expressing your feelings. It's good to open up discussions on this issue.
I can assure you that this feeling will pass. The early times are so very hard for so many resons. I too had similar feelings. PPD? maybe. But what really got me was I gave up so much to have this little being, and I got NOTHING in return. I know this sounds selfish, but anyone who has experienced having to change their lives alomost entirely will understand.
Now, my daughter is 1.5 years old, and I am loving it! It is so different once you see their little personalities start to form.
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