Oh you sweet thing. I am childless (although I am a step-mom)and know that I DO NOT want a child. I see what my friends go through; the stress, no sleep, no time for yourself, etc. and I KNOW that I don't want that. Please know that there are people out there just like you. MANY women just won't admit that that's how they feel. They feel like a terrible person for saying that they hate being a mom, but you/they shouldn't. If you REALLY feel that you aren't sure that you can do this, I do highly recommend looking into adoption. I don't think it's fair to you or baby to be miserable. Or wonder, "how much longer can I take this?"
Please don't beat yourself up too much for how you feel. Just know that many others feel the same way, they are just too ashamed to say it out loud.
I will pray for you!
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