Solalux, Thanks for yet one more validating post about how "faking" it with kids really can work! I'm happy that it's worked so well for you. Your posts are so helpful, by the way. They are very revealing, and I know they have been helpful to so many women both in your position and those contemplating having children. I'm so glad your little boy is such a happy child, and I so admire people like you that despite it not being natural or easy to be a happy mom, you're being strong and playing that role for your child anyway. I believe true heroes are those people in life who don't have it as easy as everyone else but who persevere and do their best anyway. You're an awesome example, and I think your son is really lucky. :)