Originally Posted By: elshello
One thing I haven't seen discussed in this thread is the breastfeeding experience. Breastfeeding was the darkest time of all for me.

At least you gave it a try. I was "forced" to try too, when I was still in the hospital feeling like s***t, (by the "it is the best for your child" guilt ridden talk from everybody from midwives to my husband)), but I hated the feeling so much, that I couldn't stop crying so I stopped after 48 hours. I felt guilt-ridden, inappropriate and a horrible human being for months, but not enough to regret my decision not to do it. With the bottle my son would sleep up to 5 or 6 hours at night with 2 months. As depressed as I was (yes, I also hated being a mom, never wanted to be one) I cannot imagine the physical and psychological torture of going through breastfeeding on top of everything else