Hi iwonder, I too think the problem is on me. My daugther, or all the kids in this world deserve all the love they need. I love kids when they make me laugh, and I enjoy playing with them. I just feel my life has changed too much when I need to raise one. But I hate myself when I think I'm complaining about my life, because I shouldn't have...Sorry, all the moms here, we're all the same, so why do I say all these negative words about being a mom. I just envy you, because you feel the joy, and I haven't yet. I wanted to but I have not found the balance in my life.