Navigaar, I am so sorry to hear your story of growing up. I couldn't help but chiming in. Every child deserves to have love. Of course, I'm sure you realize that your mother's treatment towards you had nothing at all to do with "you" but everything to do with "her." Your mother may not have had that nurturing instinct, but it surely doesn't mean that others don't. I have no doubt that you are a person worthy of love and respect, and it "is" something you can find. I hope you will work on allowing yourself to be open to that concept. Perhaps some therapy work - cognitive behavioral therapy to change your outlook, counseling, self-help books, emotional freedom therapy, etc. You might consider looking into the book, "Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy" by David D. Burns. It's a favorite among cognitive therapists and can be bought used on Amazon for less than $1. It might help with slowly changing your outlook and overcoming those feelings are not wanting to get close to anyone. And, whether you believe it or not, tell yourself every day that you are a person worthy of love and respect... and say it like you mean it. Studies show that our brains start to believe what we tell them. :)

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