((squidpup))
Been there, done that! Not all of us were born to be great moms, including me, but we CAN learn some ways to cope. It sounds like your girls are out of control and you don't know what to do about it, sort of like some of the harried families on that Nanny-to-the-Rescue show on TV. Are there any helpful things you can turn to? A parenting class at the local Y? Any way to get the kids out of the house and doing positive activities once in a while? Some good excuse for you to get out of the house and do something non-child related regularly? You NEED to break the pattern that is driving you crazy, both for your own sake and the girls'. Do they have enough physical activity, even just taking them outdoors to run around? Its better for them to be discharging that energy outside where it isn't so loud and destructive to the house and to your psyche. Do they like being read to? That can be a pleasant and quieting experience for you all. And learn to ignore the mess, all you can handle right now is keeping yourself and the girls healthy.
I had 5 kids in 6 years, so I remember the noise and mess all too well, and know that being told that you have no common sense is absolutely no help at all! The light at the end of the tunnel is this: they DO grow up,(that 5 year old will be in school soon!) and your "real" life WILL resume, and some day they will come to you as mine did to me and say, "Mom, I don't know how you did it!"
Meanwhile, take a deep breath and consider yourself hugged!