Dear Jennyt,

I feel exactly like you. We wanted to have our boy adopted out as a baby but there was too much pressure to keep him. Now we are miserable, and he's now 3. Everyone says it will get better, It hasn't. I hate the boredom and the prison cell that being a parent has become for me. I am going to talk to the adoption agency again but I know that I will get no support and won't be able to face the world, family, friends if we try to have him adopted. It was hard enough as a baby to make that choice, well it's even harder now. Life was happy until I got preganant. Now I am in a living hell with a beautiful healthy toddler as my prison guard. If only I could turn back time. I feel desperate most of the time.