Marie09, You've gotten some great advice so far, and I hope you'll consider it all.
I wanted to add that your daughter's actions aren't necessarily a reflection on you. My mom talked/played/taught me things *constantly* as a child. She *loved* being a mom and so had a lot of joy and love towards me to give. However, I was super shy as a young child and very quiet at school!! My sister, who was treated the same as me, would keep to herself at school and definitely interacted differently than the other kids. Despite all the interaction with my happy mom, we were just shy kids is all.
I strongly agree with Solalux about making friends. I agree that it's hard to find a "true" friend that can be trusted, but they are out there. My good friends, whom I can tell just about anything, are such a blessing in my life, and I strongly feel that God led our paths to cross. I don't know your beliefs, but God can do powerful things in your life if you ask! Even if you don't find a deep friendship, I agree with Solalux that just "interacting" with other moms will be helpful for you. The more you're around them, the more you'll probably start to hear about "their" struggles, and you'll feel less alone in yours.
Finally, I would keep trying everyday to find things about motherhood that you enjoy. Don't give up on it. Get some books/magazines on parenting that might you give some fun ideas. If you enjoy hobbies such as gardening or cooking, try to get your daughter involved. If you don't have hobbies, find some for your enjoyment.
I know there is joy that can be found, and in a few years from now, you might be in a completely different state of mind - finding much joy in being a mom. Things can change, so hang in there!
Do be sure you are taking care of yourself - getting enough sleep, nutrition, exercise (at least 10 min of vigorous exercise a day for mood lifting), sunshine, and fish oil if you don't eat fish - this is very important for brain health. And strive to stay organized/on top of things - this will do wonders for your sense of well-being. Flylady.net has great ideas for this. Do these things for yourself and for your daughter - you both deserve it. I wish you the best.
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