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I'm so thankful to everyone on this forum for your helpful comments. I too was raised in an abusive family. Mine was physical and emotional from both parents. My entire family has pretty much disowned me. They think I'm a liar. Also, my parents say I have bi-polar disorder and that is making me have "false memories" or something like that. I too sometimes wonder if I'm the problem and not them. I wonder if my parents are right, especially on nights like these where I can't sleep, but my not sleeping is caused by the bad memories, not by a disorder. Docs have told me I've got PTSD, not any other disease. It totally sucks because I want to practice forgiveness. I pray some day that I can be strong enough to be around them and not be ripped to shreds. I feel so guilty for not having a relationship, especially when "normal people" urge me to. You gave me a little peace tonight. Thank you.