Dear E4TA, Welcome:) it is especially hard when the family appears normal. Ive been told there is something wrong w/ me to the point of feeling so insane. I have it pretty straight now. I need constant support so I dont forget. The rejection of a mother can keep me pretty confused. The extended family is wanting to know what is my deal! I told them some and they didnt like it. Then as a result my parents and sister told that I was ???? It could go round and round. But I dont talk and I stay away. My Uncle Gary's funeral was yesterday and I did not go. I was with him when he passed and He knows and God knows. We loved each other dearly. I will continue to work on the toxic shame. Thanks mom!! The worst thing she ever gave me. I find myself yelling at one child more than the rest. Please help!! Its the last thing I want to do!! God bless us all!