thanks for your reply... it may be hard for you to understand because you say that you can't imagine not wanting children and that's the whole point! i don't want to have a child and believe that it may be worse to bring an unwanted kid into a world that is already full of children without parents. shouldn't he/she deserves to be wanted? is is right to bring an unwanted child into this crazy overpopulated world?? that's my dilemma - i do cherish life and feel bad about having gotten pregnant yet i know where i stand regarding children and am afraid of not being the parent i think a child deserves. then i would be part of the problem, not the solution. and thanks for the prayers...

Last edited by sandrake; 01/21/10 01:11 AM.