Thank you for your views here it really helps me see how things are.
We were all okay again last night but sitting in the lounge I just feel that there is something missing. I did love him and think in a small way maybe still do but at the end of the day do not need him and there is a real difference there.
I will get through the holidays the best I can but also know that if things do go wrong there is never a right time to leave.
I am going out tomorrow night with my work but taking the car but he is not happy about that but am going anyway. I do not go out very often without him. We are to be going out on Saturday night with our usual friends (from his band) but at the moment he is saying he does not think we will go as we cannot really afford it. Not really bothered about it anymore.
I am not prepared to put up with his nonsense any more and will no longer keep quiet when he starts being horrible any more. I will se how the holidays go but if anything happens over the weekend will let you know
thanks again
