To be honest at the moment I do not know anymore. yesterday at work I had a really bad day and would cry at the slightest thing. Got home last night went to sons football and every thing was okay no arguement or being ignored etc. Fine this morning as well but feel that I am just waiting on something blowing up. Not sure what it will be like at the weekend. Kids xmas presents bought but not for other people. Will get my family first and will deal with his family presents after that. He has got his christmas presents @ �150 but wait and see if I get anythign from him!
He will not go to counselling as he can be very stubborn.
With regard to the affair it was with my best friend who I no longer see now. I had an idea but no prove and it clicked into place one night at our house when she was there and some other friends and I ended up throwing both of them out of the house. He came back next day btu still denied it but ended up admitting it. Seemingly it was never sexual!
We can be okay for a week or two and then it all kicks off with him being really horrible and it will come this weekend with christmas coming.
I do not want to keep going like this as it is not good for me or the kids. I will need to see Christmas out and have my diary to write in which I have been doing since April this year. During this time we have really fell out majorly about 10 times since April and also during this time have had a lot of minor arguements and he moans constantly. Surely this is not normal in a happy relationship. He also tells me I am lazy, not good enough for anything, when arguing he will tell me I will not get any one else as good as him but he will get someone better than me.
I actually walked out in the middle of the night the other month and wish I had not went back but after I walked out he went and picked up our son from my mothers even though he had been drinking so felt that I had to go back. My daughter was at her friends.
