I have a somewhat similar situation to yours. Ive always been a pretty nurturing person, Im a special education teacher and I work with teens with severe disabilities. I also really enjoy kids and am good with them. Many people I know have told me what a wonderful mother Id be. However, other then when I was much younger Ive never felt the pull to be a mother. I like doing my own thing and just cant see myself with a child. Though I enjoy children I also dont like to be around them indefinitely. After I got married I became even more convinced I didnt want kids, luckily my husband feels the same way. Im very fulfilled with our relationship and our pets, we have 6 dogs and three cats, I love mothering them! The money factor is also huge and I cnat see how we would afford a child as I know Id want to stay home for at least a while. I thought I might start wanting kids as I got older but now Im thirty and Ive never been more sure in my life that I dont want kids. I keep the option opena and I know I can turn to adoption someday if I want too, but I doubt Ill ever be a mom. On the one hand I feel a great sense or relief and joy when I think that, its like a huge burden has been lifted and I feel really clear about my future. At other times I feel a little sad when I see a cute baby or think about the names I had picked out long ago for my future children. I really do believe though that if you are ambivalent about having children, its a sign that your not supposed too.
