BellaOnline Forums Health and Fitness Depression Greetings!!!

Chelle, that is soooo cool how you get to go around in you 35ft trailer !!!

Beautiful !!

Burt, that's starPeridot that has the trailer. I'm a homebody, lol!

Oops... Sorry duh

Hi Burt, Yeah, I hear ya! It is self medicating, but I would rather do that than take prescription meds.

Hey... Who am I to judge?

I've seen things, and done things that no human being should be allowed to see or do.

My drug of choice?

Sleep... Glorious Sleep..

This lady seems to agree:

http:
//natashatracy.com/mental-illness-issues/bipolar-drug-choice-sleep/

Count me in starP! I was Dx at age 20 (43 now) although I suspect I had been suffering from severe major depressive disorder from a much younger age. I get it. Completely. Hugs to you and everyone else here.

Wow Burt, Sounds like you have been thru hell and back. But you are doing okay now it sounds like! Well, at least better than before :lovers:

Yeah, it was quite a journey... to say the least. It is the only condition other than a serious crime where they can strip you of your civil liberties and work you in a modern day slave labor camp legally. They called it a 'sheltered workshop' and it is signed by the Secretary of Labor:

Note the term sub-minimum wages...

http:
//en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sheltered_workshop

I worked 80 hours bi-weekly and got a whopping $15 !!!

After they took 70% of my SSI for living expenses.

Happy, Happy, Joy Joy !!

But, heck that was in the dark deep past of 1992.. whatta ya gonna do ?

I'm not looking for sympathy, it's just a serious illness and the part of your brain that tells you you are sick is sick and you think you're fine.

Pretty neat Cosmic Joke huh?!

These days, I have to sit for hours and just work through my psychology, day in -- day out.

Many hours just quiet thinking.

The biggest battle I have now is quite frankly staying in the now.

Part of the illness makes me regurgitate the past with all of the woulda, coulda shouldas -- very unhealthy.

It's interesting to note that you got Dx at 20, most gals usually don't get it kicking in until their 30's.

Got mine at 16.

Man what a cluster-chuck. We all thought it was just teenage BS, but then I went into the hospital at 22, 23, 27, 30, 33... yuck !

I'm just soooo glad it's pretty much over and handled with meds... but so is my youth.

I still feel 17 inside but bod is talkin' 51 .

Yeah, had some pretty freaky moments with the schizophrenic component, but now everyone is saying that it was a legitimate mystical experience... why didn't someone prepare me?

Whatever..

This guy does a good job at explaining what the frig happened and why:

http:
//www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6mMb83Mp7U&feature=c4-overview-vl&list=PL51814D4C1329C549

wow! great video share! That is truly amazing. I believe I am a true level 6 or 7 for sure! I am going to have to watch the other videos this guys has. Just curious, was this incarceration you speak of, was this a Baker Act? Or voluntary? I am also in Florida (Ft Lauderdale) my husband is a crisis intervention officer with the Miami police dept. He is a police officer but he is the guy everyone calls if they need someone to be Baker Acted.

The Baker Act is a 72-hour mandatory hospital evaluation.

I was Baker Acted in 1997.

It takes three signatures and the reason they always call your husband is because he's one of the three and trained in crisis intervention.

The other 2 are usually family members.

Got in some bar fights along the way, arguments with my brothers, and hung with some unscrupulous folks for a time.

I just read that although Johnny Cash cultivated the outlaw image quite a bit, he only actually spent overnight in jail only a few times for misdemeanors and had an honorable discharge from the Air Force as a Staff Sargent... show business is such an illusion !!!