i've been visiting the church my parents attend for a while now, and i finally joined a few weeks ago. there are a few other women there (married though) who do not have children, and who are in their 40s. so i don't feel like too much of an outsider except i'm one of the few in that church who is divorced (it's a tiny little church). well, they were talking about mother's day last week, and i started to have a slight panic attack. i was worried because i'm one of the cf'ers on here who came about CF unwillingly. and now i'm divorced partly because of my unwillingness and partly because my ex and i had a passive-aggressive relationship, lol.
well, anyway, i was worried and didn't want to disappoint my mom, but i also didn't want to go to church on mother's day. i'd never gone anyway, but now that i'm a member, mom will expect it, ya know?
today, she dropped a bombshell on me. she's leaving for tokyo, japan on may 9. she'll be gone on mother's day. so i hate to say it, i probably won't go to church that day. i'll put mom's card in her bag (or ask dad to if i don't see her first) before she leaves.
i hope she has a good time. her neuro-oncologist (mom is a brain cancer survivor) is going for a medical conference and wants my mom to speak there. i'm sure she'll have fun, but i worry about her eating. she's not one to try new things. lunch is usually steak and potatoes, and supper is a green salad with almonds and fruit. she's very set in her ways.
anyway, i'm excited for her, a little worried about her, a little scared at the same time.
i just thought it was weird how things seemed to work out so far.
