I, too, have lost two pregnancies in the last year. Know that you are not alone in your pain. Life is not "fair" -- it never was, nor ever will be. God gives us blessings and hurts, too, that we may be able, through our own pain, to feel compassion and empathy for others. Realize as you look around you that there is a world full of hurt, take heart, and honor your children by service to others. No, the pain never goes away, but it becomes more bearable with time and grace. Godspeed.