Hi, just checking in. It has been awhile. When I asked for stories of things working out I didn't necessarily mean it was easy or that working out meant having children. I just meant tell me your story and how you worked it out and what helped you. Not every story is going to help in the same way but the more you hear, you can take parts from each one and they may ring true or trigger some thought that will help. It is a very confusing position to be in. I respect all of the childfree people and the people with kids. There is a 3rd even smaller group which is us in the middle trying to figure out what to do and we appreciate hearing from you. Thanks for all of your input and encouragement. As an update I have been seeing a therapist. I can't say that it is helping alot. We keep going around in circles. Sometimes I think I want to , sometimes I don't. I keep hoping something will click either way. I think the thing i still fear the most is the actual pregnancy.