For those of you who haven't read my previous entries. Im 25 had 2 miscarriage in 2006 and one in 2000. And in 2003 my son was molested my a former cousinat age 3. He is 5 now. The holidays were bad enough thinking that i should be gettig ready for a new baby and my thoughts were constantly with the children that i never got have. And then after we got home from chirstmas vacation i found out the former cousin was a pregnant and about ot give birth anyday. And i did press charges she served 8 months is a convicted registered sex offender. When i found out that i was crushed in every possible way. How can a man as perfect as God see fit to do this. A few nights after that i cried myself to sleep. Wondering if God even existed and Why would he do such a thing. He took 3 of my children away for no reason. How am i suppose to continue to trust in God after all that has happened?????
