Hello all, I am new here and look forward to meeting all of you. I will make this quick, as I am not sure if I need immediate help or not.
DH: History of domestic violence resulting in an Assault 4 charge, did a few years in prison, states he didn't do it. Also got into another relationship where he apparently hit his ex wife, but I don't know particulars.
We have been married for almost 2 years. He was very intelligent and kind at first, seemed to be enamored with me. Right around the wedding date was the first time he hit me. He had just started a medication to treat bipolar disorder. We were in bed and I said something he didn't like and he hit me in the face with an open backhand. When I tried to run, he pulled the phones from the walls so I could not call the cops (I didn't have a cell phone at the time). That night he apologized, cried, said he was working on getting help for his anger and PTSD's. I stayed. Then he started hitting his son after we were married. I made his son go live with his mom to keep him safe, as he was literally bruising him. A few weeks ago he told me he felt that he was becoming increasingly violent. A few days later he asked me for a hug, and when I went to hug him, he put his fist into my chest,saying that I was hurting him. Then a few nights ago, he became upset that I did not want to have sex. We argued for a few minutes and then he threw a remote control and it hit the wall above my head and shattered. Then he got up and threw everything on the desk around me about the room, and threw my potted plant over my shoulder, getting dirt everywhere, including in my hair and all over my macbook. When a neighbor called, he immediately stopped and started cleaning the room. He said he felt suicidal and needed help. He had an appointment the next day. When I asked him why they didn't admit him inpatient, he told me that he was not suicidal. I am at a point where I don't know how much longer until the objects that he is throwing becomes me... I want to leave, but I feel that he would likely harm himself or others and I still love him. I don't want to be next, but I have no idea how to navigate this. I don't even know if his throwing things is physical abuse. Has anyone experienced this, and should I get out immediately? I am having a bad feeling in my gut that this may not be even a remotely safe environment anymore.