Thank you Encore. I admit, it is hard to resist that pull that is inside of me, well it use to be a lot harder. The pull for those good moments but overall I am content with my decision. I can be in other childrens lives in other ways. I know my mother may be slightly disappointed but my sister has had children so thankful for that. Also my sister mentions me having children but like I try to tell her, this way I have more attention and monies for her children. And I felt some guilt for the abortion but I figured the guilt is worth dealing with to have my life and to realize that maybe I wouldn't be the best parent. Thanks again for the kind words!