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Up until last night after spending the night in the emergency room, I thought I had life all figured out.

It was yikes when the emergency room doctor told me I was having an anxiety attack.

A what????

Ms. Cool and in control - no way...

Well, it was one and it took me being short of breath and dizzy to finally allow my daughter to leave her job early (she was scheduled to work until 9:30pm - we arrived at the emergency room at 6:30pm). I hate to bother people to begin with and interrupting their job schedule, no way.

Anyway, we finally made it back home this morning at 1:30am.

Still not feeling myself which is frustrating as I have never been one to be in anyone's emergency room. Always believed in taking care of myself and being active. At age 54, I am determined not to accept this anxiety attack as a way of life.

The funny part of all this - I had stopped taking my high blood pressure medicine when I was still with my ex in Columbus, Georgia due to not being qualified to get it free. And as I had stated in a previous post, I was spending any cash I made from my online work on bills he was not taking care of just to have a place to stay.

The first thing that came to mind was that I was either having a heart attack or stroke from taking myself off my blood pressure medicine in April of this year.

So between guilt over being irresponsible in my mind and fear that I would be a burden to my daughter - I was totally relieved to find out my blood pressure was okay. I did not mention having this problem in the past as I find that doctors sometimes zoom onto a pre-existing illness rather than looking at the big picture.

Hated to not tell all, but so glad I did not do my usual volunteering of this information/lol = I just felt on my insides that I had been healed. I had a feeling when I did not qualify for free blood pressure medicine and had to choose between getting more or keeping the lights/water and roof over my head - that I had been healed. I did not want to go on the medicine to begin with when I turned 52, but had to as my pressure went sky high.

Anyway, not complaining just hoping my story will encourage someone else who is wondering why they are going through something.

While I did not appreciate the trip to the emergency room or the bill that will be coming soon/lol (although I did apply for financial aid, sometimes this hospital will waive all charges) - going there confirmed what I thought. I no longer had high blood pressure. Yipppeee!!!!

Now to work on my anxiety which comes from wanting my own place like yesterday and worrying if I will ever get it again. Bottom line, I know from the past if I continue to work hard on my online business - things will fall in place. Now to relax

Thank you Florida Hospital for your caring staff - made me rethink about not wanting to be in an emergency room. You made me feel welcome and located my issue right away

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