I'm so glad to have my feelings validated. I feel, personally, that I am at a point of transition. My age, plus the numbers of my birth day and month plus 2012 comes to a 9 - and I feel very strongly an ending to something and a beginning of something quite mind boggling. (This year brings my age to a 10. 7+3)
The song YOU RAISE ME UP started an awakening last year, and then there was a lull - until now, when all heaven seems to have broken loose upon and around me.
The first 'change' (at the very start of January this New Year) brought about some very real attacks by something I would call 'dark' - as it actually hurt me physically at the time. For a while, I felt panic, but I sought help and employed all the methods known to me at the time, to dispel this hovering, heavy, oppressive negativity. It was DEFINITELY from without. I actually 'saw' it.
Recently, I was led back to the writings of St. John of the Cross by something Elleise wrote to someone else in her forum. It directed me back to this saint of the Carmelite Order, a Religious order to which I have very close spiritual and physical contacts. Again I found answers.
I understand that whenever there is a surge towards higher truth, there is also a test of 'bringing down' - and I do believe it was a test.
After I was raised above this, then came the dreams you interpreted for me, and closely following that - the big awakening I described. So I had to pass the test FIRST! Then that tiny elephant was allowed to grow. It's still growing (can't hold it in my hand anymore!) and like in the dream, I am giving it to others, and it keeps coming back to me, larger each time I give it.
And you, Deanna and Elleise, have been the divine instruments who helped bring about this change in me, and I'm sure, change in so many others whom you do not even know about. You are the Messengers and bringers of love, peace and awareness.
The journey BEGINS!
Melwyn.
