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Dear Friends, I can't continue with the poetry just now. Something tragic and terrible has happened. It wasn't my fault, but that fact doesn't make me feel any better.

I can't talk about it just yet. It only happened a couple of hours ago and my heart is broken and my soul torn. I have inflicted the worst pain, through an accident that was not my fault, but a little dog is fighting for its life and a little girl is broken hearted and inconsolable. So am I. I am unable to distance myself due to the fact that it was MY car, and I am flooded with all the pain and fear and grief and torment from both little souls who, like me, are innocent victims of an owners neglect. (Onlookers told me the dog is always escaping and getting onto the roads) But placing blame doesn't make me feel better either. IT WAS MY CAR with ME behind the wheel, and I am a person who could never harm a little dog and his adoring friend without it having a devastating effect on me. I am a sensitive, and animals are all my children.

Please send healing vibes to the three of us? especially to that little black and tan fluffy dog (Possibly a Shih Tzu) and the little girl who loves him. I swear I shall hear that little dog's screams until the day I die - and after -

I keep asking, 'WHY did it have to be ME!' I keep thinking I must have needed to be brought into line, or I must have bad karma from something. I feel like it is a punishment for something I did wrong.

I am posting this also on the CLAIRVOYANCE forum, in the hope that Elleise might see it and be able to help.

I phoned the ER where I was going to take the dog, but the owner came in time to take him himself, and was told that they cannot give any information about a dog that is owned by someone else. So I shall not be able to know how the little chap is, or if he lives or dies. I fear he was seriously injured. I left my contact details with the ER but it will be up to the owner to contact me. He probably won't. In a way, I'm dreading the news, but have a need to know just the same.

I shall never feel the same about going to my beach retreat again. Such a tragic, painful ending to what had been a lovely afternoon and evening.

Hi onealone,
Goodness !! blessed little doggie, blessed you, and blessed little girl !!!
I don't know what to say...

Tanks Burt. i have a terrible empty feeling, and I fear little dog has died. a part of me died with him.

I just don't understand why - of all the cars on the road tonight it had to be me! Before I start out on a journey I always ask for protection of myself and my dogs, and for all who share the roads with me, for their children and their animals. I feel like I've been kicked in the heart. WHY?!

Just another one of those ' fun ' cosmic kick in the asses.
Well, if you go by the premise that as soon as things get better in your life and good things happen, like you becoming relieved and helped on this forum... Well the ugly part of the universe just cannot tolerate that !! So, something is sent calculated to devastate you and bring you down.
I've seen it over and over again in my own life.
God has shown me a more powerful, effective and penetrating form of protection called The Tube of Light:

In a loud voice, don't be shy, but be private and discreet in your car or home... cry out to God and say:

In the Name of Jesus Christ, I demand, I command, I expect and I Decree:

<insert your personal demands and expectations>

I ask that it be done according to thy will O God..
Nevertheless, Not My Will, Not My Will but thine be done.

Burt, How, oh how do I shut out the puppy's agonizing screams and the frantic crying of the little child? I have tried burning incense, praying, sending love and thoughts of healing, but I am picking up such grief that my own heart and soul are torn.

I have 'felt' the pain of others before, but not like this, because on those other occasions, I have not been the instrument that brought the pain. I cannot separate myself from the cause.

It is 1am here, and I cannot rest. If I close my eyes I see it all over again. I hear the screams. It's a living nightmare I can't awaken from.

Please pray for the child? I sense that the little dog has died.

I Pray for the little child.. I pray for you also, although you are responsible, please understand that it was an accident. You did not intend to do so.. I know it's little consolation and you're going to have to work through your grief and pain. An accident. It all has to do with responsibility. If the parents knew that baby child was so in love with the dog, they would have taken better care of it and made sure it could not get out. You were following the rules of the road and were in your proper right to travel on that road. I hate to get cold and legal, but sometimes you have to objectify the situation. So, don't throw all of your love out on grief. Bring it back to your heart and succor your own heart which is also the heart of a child.. I know and understand our striving for outer ritual to make things right.. and we just get more depressed and despondent when it doesn't seem to help. My brother was drinking four liters of 210 proof whiskey and stealing 12 800mg of Loratab a day from our Dad.. Then he would verbally abuse Dad for hours. I pray and pray and used powerful prayers right in his face and ended up in jail. To top it off Dad signed his false statement because he wanted peace. No Worries Mate.. The full responsibility for that baby child's grief lies with the parents. Not You. The neighbors had the courage to tell you so. Now, don't let them drag you in the mud emotionally or legally. Promise ?

I promise. I'm going to try to go to bed and to sleep now. Sitting here trying to blot out what needs to be faced and accepted isn't going to help me, or my health. Time for logic, even though it is cold comfort. But as you say, reliving a horror that was not of my making is unproductive. I was a victim - just like that poor little dog and the little girl who loved him so.

If I'd tried to avoid the dog, I'd have caused a three (or more) car pile up. That would have been worse, especially as someone would have hit the poor dog anyway. 4 lanes of traffic!!!! Nowhere to go!

You did not intend to do so.. I know it's little consolation and you're going to have to work through your grief and pain. An accident. It all has to do with responsibility. If the parents knew that baby child was so in love with the dog, they would have taken better care of it and made sure it could not get out. .... The full responsibility for that baby child's grief lies with the parents. Not You. The neighbors had the courage to tell you so. Now, don't let them drag you in the mud emotionally or legally. Promise ? [/quote]

Dear Onealone,

Sometimes there is no answer as to why things happen as they do. We ask WHY and we suffer and torment ourselves and keep asking WHY? The answer, or the peace and understanding, will come to you at the right time. Burt has given you much to think about and has spoken truth in the quoted words above.

Take those words to heart and realize you would never intentionally have caused such pain. It is not ours to ask God why, it is our task to know that some terrible things happen for a reason we may never understand. Maybe God sent a message to the parents of the darling child to become more aware and more protective to prevent tragedy by being responsible for the safety of the dog and their child. As horrible as this tragedy is for you, it could have been the child who was hit. This is a wake up call for the parents.

Also as bad as it is for you, God chose to put you there at that moment, because you have the deep sense of love and the power of prayer. If it had been someone else, they might have just driven away with no concern for the dog or the child.

Maybe, if that precious dog dies, you can find a puppy that needs a home with a child who will love it.

Be at peace, Dear One, and know that your family here is praying with you and for you, the child, and the dog.

Onealone.......my heart goes out to you, you gentle and loving soul. You know this was not your fault but you ache for the pain that was caused by the owner's irresponsibility. You are indeed a victim here, and you yourself could have been killed or you could have killed other people if you had done anything differently. It was as God intended, even if we do not understand why.

I feel your pain. Everyone here responding to you has been right in assessing the situation, and I am sure it is hard for you to see this because you are so upset, and understandably so. Please try to find some comfort here among us. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and with the innocent child and dog.

Dear Friends,

I had a terrible night of flash-backs. I keep hearing the little dog's screams, and feeling that hit, followed immediately by a sickening 'bump' as my wheel ran over its little legs - and heaven knows what else! Then, the child on the ground, above it's tiny form, crying bitterly and hysterically. (they, the parents and child, didn't arrive on the scene for about 10 minutes, when I was moving my car closer so I could take the dog to the ER)

This morning I had a high BP and pulse only 49 and heart murmurs, and had to call an emergency doctor. I am suffering Post Traumatic Stress, and have been given medication to make me sleep. (I got no sleep last night and with my particular medical problems, that is dangerous for me) I'm to be reviewed in 5 days, unless my condition worsens.

I will spend today resting and listening to CD books (I have them delivered from the library as I am disabled) That will take my mind off this horror I hope.

I just want to clarify that it is not feelings so much of responsibility which are tormenting me, but the pain I innocently inflicted. I feel as if I killed a member of my family, and though it wasn't my fault, I unfortunately 'feel' the pain, and fear and everything else that the dog and the child suffered. It is the price of being a Sensitive. ("empath", or whatever!) I need somehow to 'clear' this, I've tried the usual grounding techniques, but they aren't working for me this time. I feel this for anyone suffering, but it comes close to home when you have been used as the 'choice instrument of torture' as a means of conveying a 'lesson' to someone else. It's vicious and cruel and NOT loving!

I don't think I will ever place trust in prayers again, or those whom I trusted in those prayers for 'protection of me and mine and of all sharing the road with me - all children and animals'. I just regained my faith, after losing it and becoming an Atheist in 2006, and this is not good timing to test me yet again!

After 72 years of constant 'testing'. I'm beginning to feel like Job in the OT. This isn't the first time I've been hung with the very thing I prayed for protection against.

I don't like being kicked when I'm down. and yes! I AM feeling betrayed by the Powers I trusted.

Off now to try to regain some peace in my broken spirit!