Insightful!
Similar path.
Went to college, studies psych/art minor worked special olympics, offered a shelter for animals(2-5 acres) and worked with brokerage firm...so, financial and social balance, but main focal, independant.
I think there's a lot of layers within. Some, probably memories, some maybe even bio-chemical (attraction, thrills, boredom) just stuff.
I had 2 abusive relationships before the iron door clamped down on that pathway. What it was, for me anyway, was compassion and get this, the concept of taking every single negative life threw at me into a positive. It's a nice concept, but sometimes, just not such a good idea. If it's bad, know it's bad.
I knew going in I was taking a risk. I stayed too long and listened too long. In the end he actually said, "You were the only horse I couldn't break." I don't think I can post the word that comes to mind, lol.
So there's no confusion though...My message for him is:
"NO...you didn't and
never will. You're not strong enough."
Physical intimidation is just
so easy you see. Easy isn't an equal of mine. He was never even in the ball park. He took and took and it's like a little boy with all this stuff, just [censored] aroun him...but it's just stuff and a ghost of a memory that will never be
