I'd like to start with some backround, we met online in 2006, i went to stay with him 3 times for a month each time in 2007, in 2008 i stayed for 3 mths before problems rose and i left, got halfway home and turned around and came back to him. a few mths later he backhanded me during a fight. i was going to leave but didnt, ended up getting pregnant weeks later...I told myself i could not stay in that house and raise a child with him so i left, telling him it was basically over and im having an abortion. Well, i left two days later, to my parents. i did not go through with the abortion. I stayed home(very far away in another country)and had my beautiful child. He came to be with me for the birth and came back 4 mths later to marry me. partially for visa purposes really, and it wasnt a real wedding. For financial reasons on both ends I stayed away until our son was 1. While I was pregnant it was so easy to recreate all the good times and forget the bad, I was pregnant , lonely and missing him. I forgot I already was going to leave him TWICE and he hit me. Soo i went backk as i said nad we lived a generally happy life for 1 yr together., we have had a few intense arguments where I have threatened him to just hit me(he raised his hand), but other than stresses fro no money, bills etc, we were ok. One month ago we were having an argument, near the end I gave up on the conversation and said "u know what, **** it", in an instant he raged flew at my neck choking me, in front of our two yr old, i thought he was only going to do it for a secand so i didnt fight back, just laid back on the couch, then when i couldnt breath and he wasnt letting go i started fighting back, hard. I was able to get out 'i cant breathe!' he replied ' i know u cant ****ing breathe'..........he left marks on my neck that lasted a week. i couldnt even turn my neck at all the following day(s) and the day after someone even asked me if i was sick bcuz my voice was coarse..it sounds surreal when i type it out into a story like this. i left 8 days after it happened, with our son. i have been out of the house for three weeks now and he has said all of the things it seems everyother man says in this sitution to their wives. Altho somewhere in my heart I still like to think that he's different, it REALLY was so surprising. he has since admitted to hving anger problems, and said i was part of his staying good bcuz i was so understanding and chilled. well. i knew leaving was the rite thing, i hope? i still feel very guilty for tearing up a family leaving my stepdaughter. but i couldnt stay knowing he is capable of reacting like that....o yea, he says he was under a lot of stress and thought i was saying f it to our relationship...he is a lot older than me.
I really do know u all are right, and I guess the reason I made this post was to hear it again, from strangers I guess. Of course he told me not to listen to other ppl bcuz they just want me back and they dont know what we feel for eachother on a daily basis...I've been at my best friends and will be at my parents in a few days.
Of course he told me not to listen to other ppl bcuz they just want me back and they dont know what we feel for eachother on a daily basis...I've been at my best friends and will be at my parents in a few days.
It i guess is hard for me to look at him the way i know everyone who looks at the story does. BUT i am a strong beautiful intelligent woman, still in my 20s, with a beautiful son. I come from a good family, I know I will be alright, its him, in a way i feel sorry for him for messing it up. For losing me when he was already lucky to have me,
