I am so sorry you are going through this. It is a very hard thing to go through.I lost my first pregnant too, I was 16 weeks, but baby didn't grow more than 9 weeks :( I had a mc in late march, and again due to a blighted ovum a few days ago.
The first mc was way harder than this one. In my first mc, I got very depressed, didn't take meds, I got out of it. It'll take time, it may take weeks, or even months. It took me about 3-4 months to not think about it every day.
I was angry at my husband for a few days after the mc as well because he would tell me not too get too excited, but he is probably suffereing just like you but is just trying to be strong for you. My husband stayed strong and to be honest that helped me out a lot. I am trying to not rewind a few months back and end up in the state i was. It is a horrible place to be in. I felt anger, I wasn't happy.
And now this time....I feel very scared. We have to wait a year, and gonna go to genetic counseling.
Right now I feel as if having a baby is a long dream away, I know I shouldn't think like that but after go through 2 mc in 5 months, its hard. Doctor thinks its bad luck, doesn't think their is anything wrong with us.
You will survive through this, just cry as much as you can, thats what I did and it helped. Eventually I gave it one last long cry and promised myself I wouldn't cry and be in that state again.
I wish you the best, and I hope you find peace, again, I am realy sorry you are going through this.
