Hi Yingyang. You have some very serious issues going on and I wonder if there is some way to get some help - some financial and medical assistance and some counseling? I know there are government programs for low income people, offering such help.
And it would be good for you to ask around if there are any young mothers' groups to join. It seems from your story that your circle of friends is toxic for you, and your mother is also unstable. A solid group of fresh new people, all young moms or about to be, would be a breath of fresh, clean air in your life.
Those are my first thoughts - get some government help, and find a supportive womans' group where you can be around healthier minds and better energy.
Last edited by Jilly; 05/09/10 05:48 PM.