I'm currently two weeks away from my due date, and I just found out I'm group B strep positive.
I'm absolutely sick over this.
The pregnancy was already complicated. I've got a serious hip injury (SIJ dysfunction, probably caused by a fracture in my pelvis), and spent the last two weeks fighting with my doctor over whether or not to have a c-section (it will save my career -- military police -- and my future ability to walk, period). I think he's finally willing to do it, but even so, the baby could still get meningitis, pneumonia, or kidney failure...
She only has one kidney.
As far as I know, there is nothing they can do for an infant with kidney failure. No dialysis, no transplant.
I know that if the doctor administers the antibiotic correctly and in the right time-frame, she has a 1 in 4000 chance of having one of these problems, and if she does, she won't make it.
If he doesn't, if he gives me the antibiotic too soon or too late, her chances are 1 in 200.
Please give me some reassuring news. I can't stop worrying about this, and even though it isn't my fault I feel so guilty I can't stand it.
Also, I want to get my tubes tied. I know this news will complicate that further -- he'll tell me that if this child doesn't make it, I can't have another. I, on the other hand, don't believe you can replace a child with another one, so I don't think going through all of this AGAIN is going to make me feel any better (and with my hips the way they are, it would endanger me and future children, and how selfish is that).
I didn't want this baby. I know that sounds terrible, but I didn't. My husband decided for the both of us, and I face a lot of depression due to that, no matter how much I love this little one.
I don't want another one. How can I make the doctor see that?
