Amelia,
Things will get better. I know this is really horrible but when I had my first child (by myself) I was lucky enough to have someone find me and let me rent a room very cheaply and if we (she was alot of fun) got asked out on a date she would tell me order big so I can have some too, hahahahahahaha. I remember one time I made this nice diner for a date (couldn't get a babysitter) and he didn't show up so she comes out of her room and I am really upset and she says "I'll be your date but just remember you are going in your own room" hahahahahahaha.
Eva