Hi Brokenhearted, I once was where you are. I am now divorced (sad to say, even though it was not my decision), however, I can say that in those hurtful moments the one good thing that came out of it was my relationship with GOD!!..I felt also that I was putting my husband before HIM and he had to show me that HE is all I needed. I remember talking with HIM and crying about my husband, asking, how could I love a man so much and he could hurt me so without any remorse..and you know what I heard GOD speak to me..He siad, "This is how I feel about you!!" All I could do was cry, but you know, even though my marraige did not survive, GOD was faithful...He showed me that all I needed was him and I will not tell you that I was not hurt, but I will say that he did give me peace..I remember my friends asking me how I was able to handle all the things I was going though and thinking that I was going to lose it becasue to them, I seemed to be so calm, I would always tell them, this is not about my husband, it is all about GOD, I only wanted to please HIM by doing what I knew I was suppose to do as a wife, also I continued to ask GOD to not let me harden my heart against my husband or even the woman he was having the affair with...In the end, I can tell you that when my Husband filed for the divorce, I was not bitter, and ALL Glory to GOD!! I do still hate that we couldn't make it, but you know, I can truly say that I did my part and stood and GOD continued to bless me, whereas, my EX-husband is still very bitter toward me even though I never shown him anything but Love and he seemed to have gotten his way...So look how GOD work..I am at peace and I could have been the Bitter one...so you continue to pray for your marriage and your Husband and hopefully, your Husband will open his eyes and heart and see that he has a Good thing and not let the enemy rob him of his family!!! I will say a prayer for you...No matter what happens in this, you will have a testimony!!
