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Laura, what might happen if you got back in touch with June? What might happen if you don't?

I don't know. can't think straight at mo. i do not want to go back into the hospital. i like my freedom too much. i have appt with june tomorrow morning.

i look and feel like [censored]. she will know somethin is up for sure. unless i find some way to cover up.

i have had enough. just want to be free of this rotten hell.

Tell June exactly how you feel. She can help.

You can do this Laura. You're stronger than you think you are.

Laura, your relapse is normal and expected. June has seen it hundreds of times. See her and level with her. She knows anyway.

Good morning

well, i managed to do it. (Or June managed to get it out of me - how on earth do they do that?)

As soon as she saw me she knew something was up. She said to me, "so, what happened?" "well..." and so I told her. She then grabbed me something to eat and made sure I ate that at least.

She told me, as you have, that relapses are normal, and we just pick up where we left off. We then discussed some other issues. She than made sure that before I left the hospital that one of the doctors had checked me over. Luckily, I wasn't admitted. She wanted me to stick around for lunch but I didn't want to stay.

I was given an assignment, to destroy my ana books. Well, I didn't destroy it, just threw it in the bin outside. But, it's gone now. Something that has been part of my life for quite some time.

I told June I needed a new saying to live my life by, and that I was going to write this down on one of my quilt blocks which I have just done. She suggested, "Nourish both your body and soul". I don't know. It doesn't really sit well with me. What do you think? I like the word nourish/nourishment. Do you have any other suggestions.

And thanks for the pushes. It's not as scary as I thought it would be.

Laura

Wow - I'm amazed by your story Pinklulu. You have shown a lot of courage and it is fantastic that this online community allowed you to reach out and ask for help and receive encouragement.

Keeping reaching out and keep in touch - the world has so much to offer and valuing your health is so important so that you can enjoy your life.

After taking the steps that you already have I know you have the strength to overcome this obstacle and move on to a great future.

Best Wishes
Danielle

Let us nourish ourselves in every way.

Nourishing ourselves by living happily (well, or something else. I'm sorta brain dead right now.

Nourishing our souls through nourishing our bodies????

I like June's bunches.

I agree I like the words nourish. There are so many creative wordy women here, you will have more ideas than you can handle.

I'm so glad you got through today.

How about "The earth provides nourishment so that I can live well."

While you say it picture the natural foods of the earth as wholesome, healthy resources that are meant to be eaten. These are foods that don't make you fat, they give you health.

Or "Eat well of foods that nourish the body."

When I'm ill I like to visualise my body taking in the nutrients I need from the food I'm eating, and eliminating the toxins as part of the process. I do this even if it is just an apple I'm eating. That food is like a bulldozer, that pushes the toxins along and out, it's got to be done regularly or those toxins just sit there making you feel worse. You can think of anything you like as those "Toxins" - negative feelings, self-doubt - and imagine them being pushed out of your system by the nutrients you're putting in.

I wish I had some magic words to help you, Laura. I know you will pull through this, I know you're strong enough!

But I'm really sorry for you - this sucks.

You've come SO far and changed so much....have you talked to your counselor yet? Remember what led you to her --- the first post of this whole thread, and this whole stage of your life. You were too weak to move, and you found the strength to get help.

Reach down inside you and find the strength to help yourself again.

- Laurie