thank you so much to Ashley and Claudine.... i'm getting a bit better and not crying all the time... its getting better that way but the same thing happens to me when the babies cry... my fiance and i talk all the time and he knows now to keep our minds off it, and we will go out and have fun dancing or just a nice dinner to talk.... he knows anything to distract us is good and we talk about our loss other times.... things are even stronger between us now tho... its awesome and even though i have never been more hurt and upset i've also never been more happy.... and i thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me in my time of need... and i am sure there are going to be more little outbursts but i am feeling a lot better at this very moment... the physical pain however is not going away... i'm worried... and a little scared to go to the doctor... i don't like going to them, ever since the doctor in the hospital saw me.... if it hadn't been for him taking his time and doddling, there may have been something they could have done to save my baby. then when he examined me he hurt me very badly, and after he tossed me a napkin and told me to "clean myself up" it was just so unkind and didn't seem sympathetic at all... and now they all scare me. but do you think its natural to be in this much pain even one month after?
Shara