It never goes away!! I have been dealing with this for months. It has eased a little. I am kind of feeling better but it is still hard when I go out and see a couple with a baby. I just go back to when I was pregnant and how happy I was. If you ever want to talk just email me or message me. It is very hard in the beginning and you need all the help you can get. I am so sorry this happened to you for a third time. I could not imagine going through all of that. I know people get tired of hearing it, that is the place I am at now. I finally told the guy that I was with about my miscarriage but he acts as if he doesn't care. He just keeps saying it is going to be ok. He does not understand at all. He thought I was lieing at first I think. He heard it from someone else, my "friend" who told him because she mad at me and wanted to get back at me. People who have not had it happen do not understand how hard it is to get over. I would have been a mom for the first time. I hope you are doing well and I would love to talk to you and hear your story maybe we can help eachother.