Michelle - I know nothing of the numb shock and emotional pain you must be feeling right now...
A friend of mine in the UK has a son with mental health problems, and she finally realised she was simply unable to cope on her own, at home with this boy...He too had become too violent and unpredictable.
In the end, she had a long talk with her own Doctor, and specialists, and reluctantly agreed to have him 'sectioned'...I don't know if you know what this means, or whether the term exists in the States...It means, being detained in a secure Hospital, under the Mental Health Act, for the security of you and those around you.
If it is perceived that you could be a danger to yourself and to others, this is a viable option, and assessed and monitored regularly.
It's not the ideal option, but it's a measure designed to help....
My feeling is that this poor boy is getting far too powerful for you to handle on your own...And though doing such a thing may have the effect of making you feel guilty and rsponsible, there comes a time when you MUST put your own needs absolutely first and foremost.
You've saved his life. Had you taken the witless road of pressing charges (good for you for resisting that!) he would never have forgiven you...and your relationship would have changed for ever. You did the right thing...But -
He could have killed you. And if he had, what would save him then?
You must take measures to prevent this ever, ever happening again.
And much as it goes against the grain of ANY mother who loves their children unconditionally, as you do - you must look to you, put yourself first and save yourself. Otherwise, you're no good to anyone.
I wish you more, than you could ever imagine.
Alexandra
Last edited by Alexandra; 05/01/06 02:32 AM.