Losing a loved one is SO hard. I'm sorry for your loss and know that time helps heal our deepest wounds. I always thought I would go crazy if I lost one of my children or one of my parents. The first major loss any person has is likely to make them feel like you do.
I lost my father, my closest friend other than my husband, 6 years ago last Friday. I thought I might die, too, but my husband and children, friends and God helped me through all those dark hours.
I think that only a person who has suffered a major loss can fully understand how bad it is, on a daily basis. My girlfriend just lost her father and I was able to empathize with her loss as well as go through some of the stages that she was experiencing. I can personally say that I miss talking to my "daddy" all the time, but each day (and each year) the emptiness is less intense. Easter was a turning point for me the first year he died because of the promise that Easter brings.
You are not alone with the intense hurt that you feel but time will make it more bearable. You need to go through the stages of pain, anger, disbelief, etc and then try to lift yourself up and move forward. You still have your daughter. Give thanks for that and treasure every moment with her. It was not fair to my family to continue to grieve and put them aside, so I embraced them and have continued to draw from their love and have slowly (but surely) come back to them.
I pray that my story will give you some hope and peace. I still cry sometimes, but not as often as at first, and now I laugh more than I did right after. Time and Love heals our deepest wounds. Good Luck to YOU and God Bless You and Your Daughter. Talk here as often as you like and whenever you need to lighten the pain. We'll help you as much as we can. <img src="/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
Trish
