Thank youn freespirit....I really did do the best I could with the materials available....
I am actually privileged that two of my eldest daughters' friends actually said to her - and to me, on two separate occasions - that they wish they had a mum like me.
As you will know (both from comments I have posted on here - I forget which thread) and from my blog, things between me and my daughters deteriorated when I decided to split from their father.
I do not wish to ever sit in judgement of them, neither do I intend to criticise them, or condemn them for being ungrateful for all I have done for them, ya-deh ya-deh yah...
What they decide to do, say and think, is something I have now discovered to be beyond my influence. I have tried to establish and to maintain friendly contact with them, repeatedly, but to no avail. I have been unsuccessful in trying to continue a Mother/Daughter relationship with them. They won't let me in.
That's tough on me, but that's the way it is.
Maybe things will change in the future. Of course I hope they do. But if they choose to shut me out of their lives, all I can do for now, is to accept it, and to move on with mine.
It has however been a salutary lesson, in that Parenthood is a thankless task, and that no matter how well we bring up our children, how loving, polite, respectful, well-spoken we believe them to be, the unthinkable can happen.
"It couldn't possibly happen to me and my children" is as facile and illusory a statement as "Father Christmas does exist."
Things around me may be in some turmoil, but my Inner Serenity and Joy are imperturbable.
Life goes on, and so do I...... <img src="/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
