OK, it's been a very stressful week with school starting, a new classroom to organize (still unpacking boxes), a patio to finish by Monday for a family gathering, house is a disaster, yard is a disaster, too many tomatoes to get canned before they rot, haven't been home before 6:00 pm all week, dogs to tend to,etc. etc. etc.
Then to top it off I missed out on a teaching position. My principal told me about it weeks ago and said it would be posted last Friday to this past Friday. It would be a permanent 3rd grade position in the school I'm currently at. Not just a year to year position like I'm in now where my position gets cancelled for the following year then I have to hold my breath to see where I'm going to end up next year. I hadn't put in my bid sheet for it and then I found out that it was actually posted Wed. to Wed and they hired someone brand new to the system before I even knew about it. So I missed out on the job I'd been waiting for because my principal told me the wrong dates to apply and then never informed me otherwise and now someone brand new has a permanent job and I don't! So it's too late for me to do anything about it and I was so bummed out I even cried. Now I don't know whether to go all out and fix up my classroom for several years of use or just do what I need to do to get by this year. I've lost my inspiration and desire to put forth my best effort. I feel let down by my principal and I'm just plain [censored] off.
So as if that wasn't bad enough as I'm heading down the highway toward my home I just happen to look over at the side of the road and see a doe laying in the ditch by the road. Actually she kind of looked like she was just relaxing as she would in a meadow. But I knew that wasn't right because no deer would choose to rest by a busy road. So I turned my car around and went back. I pulled off the road to be sure I saw what I thought I saw and she struggled to get up. I noticed she couldn't get her hind legs up. I didn't want to cause further stress so I quickly pulled back out onto the highway and went on home. I called the DNR and reported it and gave them the location and they said they'd take care of it. Then I went and layed in the hammock and rocked my troubles away.
This morning I went to a dog training class and drove right by the same spot. I saw that the doe was laying dead with her head against the bank. I didn't have time to pull off and see if the DNR had shot her or what. So I'm hoping that somebody put her out of her mysery and she didn't suffer all day and night in the heat by the road.
I thought of you Marian, when you told about seeing an animal by the road that was laying and kicking its legs. What can we do? It only causes more stress to it and we could get injurred in the process.
