Thank you both Cassie and Elleise. What you both said has hit home.
I have started seeing a therapist, and even though I've only had one appointment so far, I found it very helpful.
Cassie, the last line that you wrote, "Love yourself first. Protect yourself and stand up for yourself. Don't let anyone treat you badly. You deserve better." has been replying through my mind all night. I like it and might take it up as my mantra. :)
Elleise, I can completely see what you're saying. Instead of sharing my love and good nature with my friends/family/the world, I was giving it all to him, but receiving nothing in return. Its very draining.
This last week has been tough, but has been good. Every day I feel that I get a little strong, that I hold my head a little higher. Its funny, because every time I start to think I miss him and want him back, I hear about something either him or his family has said and it just royally pisses me off. He is not admitting to anything he's done, and if he cant even face the truth, there will never be change for him. At this point, I am just feeling sadness and pity for this man.
Thank you guys for your support, it really means a lot!
