[color:#6666CC]I've been with this man for 3 years. 3 months into our relationship, he got arrested for domestic abuse and charges of kidnapping. I stayed with him during that whole ordeal, and he had me convinced that his ex wife was just crazy, was over exaggerating things. Not only was he convincing me of that, but the cops took 5 months to arrest him and they had no pictures or anything of any marks.
It was about that point though, that he started to become aggressive with me. First, it was verbal and emotional abuse. He was convinced that I would cheat on him, would call me names, stare me down, etc etc. Then from there it slowly progressed to physical. Getting pushed, being kicked, violently shaking my head.
I'd justify it with stupid excuses (He's under a lot of stress, he's depressed, he's drunk), and always the next day he was sorry and would treat me like a queen. Our record time for not having an explosive fight was 22 days.
So last Monday, he was upset that I didn't laugh at his joke hard enough. He would escalate, then I would (semi) calm him down, then something else would escalate him, over and over. My roommate thought he heard things being thrown around, so he came upstairs. Well, it pretty much exploded after that. My roommate yelled at me to get out, so I hid in the bedroom. While I was in there, my bf was screaming at the top of his lungs "Where's my b****?! Where's the C***!" There was absolutely no calming him down. After about an hour of this and several different exchanges, my roommate told me to go get in his car, and he drove me down to the police station.
I've kept the no contact order in place. And my bf is now a good 2 hrs drive away from me. But now I'm just here. It so hard for me to eat, I cant sleep in our bed. I'm feeling so confused and lost. One moment I hate him, and the next I'm crying cause I miss him. :(
I dont know what I'm looking for in posting this. Just someone to talk to I guess ... to tell my story, to stop being ashamed that I stuck around for this, for being ashamed that theres a part of me that wants him back.[/color]
