No,
You should not be over this by now.
But...if you've a gent that want's only the security of knowing that you're there, for the pleasantries and all, in the long run it's going to end up feeling emotionally like a sieve.
Your efforts will be driven in purpose to be and do what feels to you to be fulfilling, while the elements within the situation aren't exactly meshing.
Take a stand. Don't settle.
