my only concern is that you're not sure why you're unhappy with your marriage. you don't want to start something only to realize that the very reason you thought was the answer to your prayers, is just another scape-goat out of an unhappy marriage.
go to marriage counselling. talk with hubby and see if you can resolve whatever it is that's going on. is he the father of your 5 kids or did you marry him just so he could support you with this? you don't have to answer out loud.
