There's been some tension with my husband lately and I wonder if it has to do with my decision to be CF. We decided not to talk about it until he's made up his mind, but lately there was a lot of baby talk around. My friend with her 7 month old visited us, my other friend announced she's pregnant, my brother and his wife have started "trying" and are oh so excited, his parents are asking (they don't know yet that I don't want any, but suspect), etc. Everytime, he tells me "see, having kids is the most natural thing". But then I take out my 1,000 reasons for deciding to be cf, and it causes tension b/w us.
Why? Because apparently he still doesn't know if he wants to have kids or not. But the arguments we've been having makes me wonder if he knows he wants kids but doesn't know how to tell me, or is he just feeling pressured? It's hard to believe that a 32-year-old man can't make up his mind about this issue. You either want or not! Grrr I'm so upset right now. What if it take years for him to "decide"? I wish WE could close this issue once and for all, instead of me looking like the monster compared to our friends and others. I'm tired of having to defend my decision (to him) everytime.
Last edited by gullivera; 11/05/09 01:38 PM.
