No, I wouldn't do that. I'm not incredibly religious, but I feel like things happen for a reason. I'm just hoping that in a few months, I'll look back and see how silly it was to feel this way.
We are talking quite a bit about it. My husband says that he gets a bad vibe from me, and that it concerns him that I am so negative about it, but want to go through with it. I just feel like we are in utter shock right now, and I'm terrified. I'm slowly getting used to the idea. He and I were texting earlier, and I told him that I'm feeling a little better about it, and could he get used to the idea, and parenthood is what you make of it. He says he's unsure, and I think he is more surprised and worried than I am at this point.
The funny thing - I had decided that we weren't trying to have kids right now, and we'd put off the decision for a couple more years. But RIGHT NOW, we would not try to have any. BUT, if it just happened, it would be alright. That way, we wouldn't have to make the decision. So oddly enough, this is the path that I had chosen, but I just thought I'd be happier about it if it ever did happen.
