It's like a circle. I have been down this path a lot of times. Each time I have deeper more complicated learning, about present joy.
Last week we went to the Santa Claus parade. We waited for 20 minutes in the freezing cold till the parade started.
A couple with 2 children came along and stood beside us. They were there 5 minutes befor it started. We spoke, they were NICE.
The parade started. That family stepped right in front of us. My youngest couldn't see. That family got all the candy, my kids got none.
The wife didn't seem to care. THe husband, kept turning around, looking guilty. I couldn't keep kindness. I was hurt and angered.
I don't believe their act was intentional. I think it just happened. But, they didn't try to correct it.
Is it my fault I wouldn't be forgiving and say, oh well, no big thing. I don't think that was the answer. I think I needed to say, could you kindly GET OVER. But, that wasn't an option. The crowd squeezed in, there was no 'over.' My kids are too polite to muscle in.
Anyway, I have been doing a lot of Christmas kinship pondering.
